Monday, November 2, 2009

Two words: Divorce SUCKS!!!

This is my parents a mere 11 months ago.

Sorry guys but tonight is a venting night for sure. It is official. My parents will be divorcing after 39 year marriage. Was it perfect? No. But does anyone have a perfect marriage? NO. So here it is... After meeting and getting prego at the age of 14 and 15 my parents got married. Then they got a divorce because my mom lost the baby. They got remarried and had my brother. Split again, then remarried again with me, my brother, and sister at the third wedding. We were actually in our parents third wedding weird I know. But it is also all I have ever known. Their marriage was hard. At the age of 19 my mom and dad had 3 kids, a miscarriage and a full hysterectomy. So we were raised in a crazy, loud home. Then we moved to the country to get away from all the drama. We did well as a family. It was not ever perfect, but we were HAPPY. Then we grew up dad said he waited for us till he left. Thanks.:( So now I am a 34 married woman with 4 kids. And still want to cry like a baby. The only thing I have ever known was this family, as dysfunctional as it was, it was mine. Now what are we going to do about holidays? Really kill joy. I HATE it. What do I tell my kids? Will I ever be able to befriend her(his girlfriend)? What, about my kids don't they count? Oh man, this has been happening it did not just happen today. BUT I don't like it. And neither does the God I serve. Why not reconcile? Why do we choose sin? It is only good for a while. Then it brings death. I HATE THIS. I am not quite sure who to be angry at. One day it's mom the next it's dad. Hard for me I am have always been daddy's girl Now daddy is unavailable. Someone else is taking up all his time. I looked at statistics all afternoon, and wanted to throw up. There are 3 easy steps for a quick divorce, do it online, get the best attorney and Win. Really this is what we have become. Get out of Marriage free, quick ,and easy. Makes me want to throw up. Sorry but this is my reality right now, and frankly it just hurts!



Shipra Panosian said...

oh Vic,
I am so sorry.
Your family will be in my prayers. Go ahead and cry, God your Father is with you and He is always available,
And if you need me, I am just a phone call away.

Maralee said...

It's hard no matter what age you are, lean on God during this time, He never fails.

Mrs T said...

so sorry Hun.
Your mom is a lovely woman and I enjoyed talking to her. Will keep y'all in my prayers.

kt said...

I'm so sorry you are experiencing this! HUGS!

His Honeybee said...

Three Words: YES IT DOES!!! :(